First Initiation in the Sisterhood of the Red Tent: Rewriting our Story about Money

I have found in my own healing as I exchange with healers and sisters that the question is actually not:

“How much is this other person worth?”  because I wouldn’t be going to that person if I didn’t think they were worth it.  The focus when we go to exchange with the other cannot be all outwardly focused.

Instead…I have begun asking myself…

“How much AM I WORTH?

How much do I value myself and how much am I willing to invest in myself by learning from this sister/healer?

How much am I worth as a reflection of this other?”

Of course this doesn’t mean I can afford to go into the broke house as I find my healing and growth.  And either is that what you need to do.

YET it does mean that you show the Universe how serious you are about yourself and how much you LOVE yourself by being intentional with what you exchange for your healing. Even if it is only $25 for 5 hours of healing – you have within you other ways of making that $25 multiply.

How?

By feeling into your gut and asking yourself what your healing, the healing of the sisterhood and thus this planet is truly worth to you. Then offering that exchange as a Ceremonial Ritual in and of itself, with the intention for healing of all sentient beings!

You then open yourself up to the Universe and ask how She would like you to stretch/grow/invest your seeds – wether it be with money, or with sharing the work with other sisters, or with something else your CREATIVE BEING comes to.

Let’s move onto the Rewriting of this Tape we have bought into that money is evil, shall we?

WHY DO I FEEL SO UNWORTHY & INVALUABLE?
One morning I was sitting in my living room and staring at this picture of my Mom and me in a frame that says “mom”.  It was taken at my 2nd birthday – an event I still remember bits and pieces of.  It is extra special since my own mother died of cancer when I was 9 years old.

As I sat there, contemplating this word “Mom”, I decided look up the etymology of the word “Mother”.  I wasn’t shocked, yet was, to see the root word of where we get “mother” from came from “Mater” – or our word matter.  It is the base word of “matrimony”, “marriage”, “matriarch”.

“But of course!” I exclaimed. Our ancients would have looked at us coming out of mother in the same way all matter comes out of matter.  Matter births Mother which births matter.

Being the inquisitive researcher I am, I didn’t stop there tho in my research.  I went on to look up the word “father” (etymology comes from “pater”…base word of “patriarch”) and found some interesting history that helped me see my world in a completely different way.

In short what I found was that these two dualistic words showed me a Key to changing my rooting mechanism within

• * While “Mater” had its root in the physical/tangible world around us –  “Pater” had no real root, no real grounding, no real beginning.  It just was.
• * Unlike most feminine/masculine words in language that reflect each other, the word “pater” grew to take on not only the “father” meaning..but also grew into the socioeconomic structure of cultures around the world. In short it grew into the word “patriarchy” – meaning a socioeconomic structure that you are born into from your father’s social status.
• * As the centuries went on, the idea that we came from Mother/Matter was buried further and further into our subconscious being replaced by the “idea” that we came from Pater…or our socioeconomic place in society.
• * I believe this correlation of the human coming from Pater is the the birth of greed: Because the root word of Pater has no beginning and no end in this reality – because our psyche cannot place this word into a context about where we come from – because this word has no beginning and no end – this correlates to our own “Beining*ness” as well. We have been trying to fill a hole that has no bottom to it with what we are told we are from – the socioeconomic stratosphere- in order to feel our value, our worth – our ROOT.  Which can only come from realizing we are part of MATER, matter, Mother.

I want to be very clear that I am not saying that our own father or that fathers are obsolete or unimportant in learning who we are.  I am looking at this from the metaphysical, mystical, metaphorical world that our human psyche {which is deeply connected the physical reality of our Soul} associates and is born of.  AND…I am saying that when we stop trying to come at our value and worth from the socioeconomic avenue and instead come at it from being born of this planet, then we have a basis from which to re-write our stories about the idea of money.

RE-WRITE AND RITUALIZE
Rituals are a grounding practice.  They help us bring the ethereal, the abstract, the mystical into this reality in a tangible way.  They help us frame the Sacred – or the realization we are connected to all – with a time and place.

My invitation to you is this:

•  ++ Sit with this idea of Mater vs Pater in you and allow your being and your mind to chew on it for a while.  Allow these questions to simply be a guide for you as you chew on the idea that you are made of Mater and therefore Matter AND that this angle is where you find your Root- your worth, your value.  *What questions come up for your in regards to this new story?
  * How does it shed new light on your old stories of your value and worth?  
  * What are those new angles?
  * What emotions arise in you?  Where do you feel them?  What do they feel like (hot/cold, sharp/dull, grief/rage)?  How can you safely move these emotions?  (hit a pillow, turn on loud music and jump around or scream into a pillow, etc.)
• ++ Start to write your new story about where you are going to find your value and worth from. Start contemplating on what you want your intent to be when you exchange money with others.  Write this down and read it aloud.  Frame it even.  OR ask within and see what your body made of Mater/Mother wants to do with it.  Other thoughts to keep in mind:
  * In my video I cannot get uploaded (thanks Mercury in Retrograde!), I talk about how money is just an object.  It is not good nor bad, evil nor the curse.  It is simply an object for exchange of energy.  What you put behind your INTENT for exchange is what matters.  If  you only have a$100 in the bank and invest $1 in your healing with the intent of growing, rooting, deepening for all sentient beings health – then your $1 will go miles.  If though, you have thousands and invest thousands in your healing with the intent of “I am owed this because of all I have been through” – your money will go no-where towards healing.  Intent is EVERYTHING…and you and the Universe know this.
  * Money is made from Mater/Matter/Mother…from Trees which are the quintessential archetype of the human.  Roots into Mama, gathering up Her nutrients and pulling them heavenwards towards Father Sky.  How can you connect with the Mater of money as your Root, instead of what our society tells us money is?
  * Money is after all associated with our MamaRoot, our 1st chakra, our grounding chakra.
  * Money, the act of receiving money and giving money, is in itself a ritual.  It is a concrete physical reminder of our time, energy and devotion we have put into both earning it and spending it.  This used to come from a more physical reminder when we worked the Mama herself.  Now it is a bit more abstract.  Just a small shift in our awareness If we would bring this consciousness to the way we spend money – then I feel a huge shift in our world would happen overnight.
• ++ Create Rituals: In my video, I tore up a dollar and buried him in the ground.  Returning the force of the energy of my ideas of patriarchy to the truth – to Mater/Mother.  Allowing Her to bring forth whatever it is that is meant to be from this symbol of value meeting my new symbol of Value.  Some people burn money.  Again, you are FREE and have permission to do what you feel you need to do in order to create a stake in the physical world that you are changing you story in relation to how you view money and where you find your Root/value/worth.  My invitation here is to
  1) create something you do in private
  2) create a little ritual you can do when you go out and invest your energy in life – at the grocery store, in rent/mortgage, for healing, for investing in the healing of communities and Mama Gaia.  Have a little mantra or prayer you can say to yourself and even out-loud.  Let’s share those mantras with others and see what happens when we start changing our idea that money is this abstract idea instead of a concrete representation of our own sweat and life force energy.

Well, this is all the time I have for now to share on this.  I hope to be able to upload the video here soon!  In the meantime, please check out the details on joining us for the Sisterhood of the Red Tent: Initiations into Womanhood: Facebook/Meetup

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