Chaos Has Meaning?

Find myself yet again at another possible earthquake or aftershock or something…well ….big.  It feels big at least.  Not sure exactly what to make of it, but I feel like I am that little girl – about 4 years old just clinging on to her daddy’s neck with as much strength as she can possibly muster….burying my head into His shoulder and asking Him to tell me when it is all over so I can look up again.  And the strange thing is…in looking for the signs from God that I have clung to these last few months, even in the midst of the possible upheaval again…even in the midst of the chaos around me….yep even in the midst of it – I still have peace and hope.  I feel another big crying spell coming on….yet I am looking forward to the cleansing action this seems to bring into my life.  I kept hearing God ask me this last week when He tells me what He is doing and I react with disbelief…I keep hearing Him ask, “Do you trust me?”

How am I to answer that?

Well, I think this is what I came down to: “Of course I do Lord!  You know I fight for a while, but in the end I don’t want to disobey you again…I want to do Your will.  I want to be right where You want me. It might not make any sense to my human, logical mind…and it’s really myself I don’t trust…so what else do I have to lose?  I am yours…I certainly can use a Father here!”

Here are a couple of things that came towards me today that encouraged me in the midst of the chaos…in the midst of the “insanity” that surrounds me and I am reminded of my walk thru the Advent season and the journaling I did then…and somehow I know that I am right where God wants me to be.  I hope that these encourage you as well as me…and maybe looking back thru the rearview mirror a few months time from now we both can laugh at this time of chaos!