I’m back from my writing intensive last week and full of new ideas, direction and….chaos. Yes, you read that right…chaos.
As I just typed that, my creative side desperately wants to investigate that word “chaos” and all that is behind it more. (Which I did just take about 30 mins to work through this for myself and will share the results with you later this week. All I can say for now is “Wow – that is awesome to have that revelation!”)
For now, back to order of today: describing more of my plan of how I see this blog moving forward and being integrated into my full calling of helping to eradicate abuse from the world.
One of the key exercises we did at Your Brave New Story was getting to the heart of the story, to the “why” I have to write this story that I am learning how to craft. In the moments that led up to this exercise I have to be honest: I felt lost in that chaos and disorder I mention above. I couldn’t make rhyme or reason in my spoken words as to how I even really wanted to shape this story, trying to put the kitchen sink into just one story that I know is living in me.
Thankfully we had a small break before this exercise where I was able to take my nervous energy out into the beautiful openness of the day, push my physical limits up the hill I chose – pushing away any ability to think about anything besides the task at hand. This allowed my body and my mind space…pure delightful space to open up to the original Creator through the beauty of Mother Nature.
ARE YOU MY MOTHER?
The heart of my story started to pour forth to me first in a reminder: the feathers. Feathers that I kept finding during my time at Life Coaching in July. Then later on the beach, on my walks around town, in the parking lots. Eventually even my kiddos started to join in on the game, bringing me feathers they had found. I looked up feathers on the internet to try to get an idea of what they were saying to me…but nothing really spoke to me at the time. While the accumulation of feathers slowed down for a bit in September, I was still wondering what meaning I was to attribute to them.
Then, arriving at Mohonk on Sunday evening Jeffery starts to speak about a Canadian Goose that he has come to love who lives on his property in New York. He shares from Animal Speaks about the feathers of geese and then passes out geese feathers he has collected.
“AHA!” Perhaps this is why I have been collecting feathers, for they would be the confirmation of me not being loco for choosing to fly across the country in a record amount of time to take a course with a man I had not even known 2 weeks beforehand. This seems like the connection I have been trying to make.
Yet, there was on more piece of the puzzle. The feathers were not just calling me towards Jeffery and Your Brave New Story writing intensive. No, believe it or not, the feathers ARE my story – or at least the heart of my story!
While I descended that hill back towards the conference room, a story started to ascend out of my soul, taking shape out of the dust from all the earthquakes I’ve had these past years. The feathers hold symbolic meaning I can finally see as my key to self-identity: self-acceptance. While I wish I could share the story here that sprung forth into my creative imagination at that point, I will save this story to be either part of my book or perhaps even a child’s book – much along the lines of Dr. Suess’ Are you My Mother?
SELF-IDENTITY IS SELF-ACCEPTANCE
In the end, as I shared the heart of my story through the story that was born that day, I began to realize that the “why” I needed to share my message was this:
While divorcing abuse, practicing joy and partnering with those that wish to learn to dance with their lives is highly important to me – they are the means by which I wish to accomplish the “why”. In true feminine form, much of this is circular – for when we can fully identify ourselves (especially women) as dualistic creatures containing both the Masculine and Feminine, then we can more fully accept ourselves just as we are…which is both Feminine and Masculine, and on and on it goes.
DIVORCE ABUSE. PRACTICE JOY. DANCE WITH LIFE.
In seeing this for myself, I am able to see more and more why I have landed on these three subheadings: Divorce Abuse, Practice Joy, Dance with Life.
Each of these modalities or themes have been key parts to my integration of myself and acceptance of myself. None of them happened all at once, and not always all together at the same time. Each modality can be worked on individually, perhaps with first learning to fully identify and define abuse so you can start divorcing it from your life…or you can work on two or 3 all at the same time.
For this blog and for my platform at large, I desire my overall message to be “Radical Self-Acceptance” and plan on writing on each of these themes on a weekly or at least monthly basis with the lens towards my “Radical Self-Acceptance“.
Next, I will lay out what subcategories I see falling under each of these themes and then present a Structured Creative Chaos plan I hope to follow – with some flexibility of course. Stay tuned!
