Temptation Island did…

….I really have no idea what TI did at this point…I think it has fast lost its appeal today.  Not because I am still not driven to help improve other people’s lives…but because my brain is mush, my body is mush and I cannot really form many co-herrant thoughts right now.  I mean I could of between the hours of 8-9 (after some rest, a shower and some food)…but I just got a heart jolt. After spending an hour filling out some profile thing just for fun and laughing so hard at stupid home videos on MTV, I logged on to FB to find out that a person that I spent 7-8 years living with as a brother ….that he committed suicide this past summer.

I have not been in touch with the family since I graduated High School with, but about a year ago the sister reached out to my bro and I on FB.  She just contacted me again today to tell me the news.  What do you say to this?  Is there anything to say?

What is worse than this is I know that at this point I do not have the emotional or physical bandwidth to be any kind of support to them….  All that comes to my head is, “Wow God…what are you going to do with this?”

Okay, it’s not the only thing that comes to my head…but one of the only things I will share.  The other thing: why I feel even more certain that I am on the right path with “Practice Joy”…for perhaps if I can teach others how to find and practice joy in their lives, it will mean one less person will feel the need to take their life away from the rest of us.

So, as I try to process all this, I will leave you with a picture of my 30+ min walk home today – that I dragged out to 1.5 hours so that I could stop and smell the “ocean air”, while walking in the little beach I hadn’t even noticed the last 4 times I had walked this path.  See – we all need to be reminded to stop and make time to “practice” joy…and right now I am so glad I did.  Maybe that will carry me thru tonight until I am getting Zumbafied tomorrow – and until I am able to figure out how to process this latest news.